"Strong willed"

by arella

 

Sometimes the simplest of ways to write is by just starting.

For the reader, it's a start to share some insight about myself. I am for all intents and purposes, at the top of my profession after having put in miles and miles of time. I have a career in an industry that requires precision; every "i" needs to be dotted, every "t" crossed. So much so, that we insure against any misstep, that protection "just in case". It suits me well to be involved day to day in an industry that demands so much of me. It feeds my strong will, challenges my attention to detail and my ability to lead others. Everything about it caters to my independent, strong willed intelligent persona.

AND

i am a submissive. i belong to Someone, She owns me, I am Hers in all ways.

Sounds like a complete contradiction doesn't it? A strong intelligent independent woman is another's property. I bend to Her will, crawl to her feet and offer all of myself to Her. She is my center, all of my focus and concentration is on Her. She leads, guides and takes me through our life together. It is a journey.

She loves and cares for me, watches out for my well being and takes away all the stresses of being me. In an everyday world, life itself can be stressful. Day to day things go on and although manageable, it can be full of pressures. Submission is really the complete opposite. The stresses of decisions are gone. It is calming. It is also challenging -laughs quietly- as a submissive, I willingly give the power over me to my Domme.

It is thrilling for me when She takes control. A subtle touch, a softly spoken command, Her hand wrapped up in my hair as She leans in and in a low growl tells me exactly what She wants. It sends sensations throughout my body, all my senses on high alert. All ways and more that She directs my actions I acquiesce to. Not because of force, or threat or out of fear. It is all about want and need, wanting to be for Her all that She needs. It isn't a one sided affair by any means, let me make that clear. The current narrative is from my perspective as Her submissive. And it isn't all altruistic either! For all that I want to do and be for her is returned to me ten fold. For me, giving over to Her relieves me of all that comes with having to be in control. She can do what no other would dare attempt. It is a freedom for me, being bound to Her.

Submission is a need, a desire and a release. It is for me, giving over to my Mistress all of those qualities and laying them out at Her feet.